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right now,

i'm at this point in my life where my self-esteem

has hit rock bottom .

and no,

i dont need you to boost my confidence.

thanks.

i look in the mirror and i wonder

where the girl i used to be went to.

i'm getting so tired of telling myself to get up in the morning,

tired of motivating myself,

tired of trying to be the best i can be.

and the worst of all this is,

crying for no apparent reason at all at the strangest times.

i feel so empty inside.
i wish i could smile/laugh and actually mean it ,

like i used to.

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Benjamin

Happy Birthday sweets

(29th March)

sorry i was too broke to get you something nice,

cause as you know i spent all my $ on myself earlier.

yes shoot me.

anyway,

i love you and i hope you had fun.

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Holiday

hello you,

this one-week holiday hasn't been fantastikkk.

):

went for a three day trip to Kuantan (Malaysia) .

it was fun, kinda.

oh welllzxz,

went to watch Horton at Vivo with

Reyan, Amelia, Brandon & Adriel last night

after meeting Ben (:

--

met Shaun today ,

kinda forgot how sweet/silly/funny/annoying/stupid he is.

walked around,

and watched Step Up 2 The Streets.

super disappointing compared to the first Step Up

(cause my boyflen Channing Tatum was only in it for 5 minutes)

hahahahahahaha

look at the picture below of Shaun the superhero sheep.

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The Great Wide Open

Hanging out behind the club on the weekend,

acting stupid, getting drunk with my best friends.

i couldn't wait for the summer and the Warped Tour .

--

last friday was the most fun i've had in ages

(:

clubbed with the usuals

(haven't done that in ages, for your info)

didn't get piss-drunk,

danced till my feet hurt.

saturday night,

watched P.s I Love you with Reyan and Tessa .

i cried like a baby (!!!!)

hahaha,

oi.

stop laughing at me.

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Get Buck In Here

Lovelovelove Baby Shane (:

anywayz,

yesterday was good/bad .

skipped two periods of chinese with jiemeizx,

got caught in the end but Mrs Kunna loves us,

so we didn't get into any trouble

(HAHAH IN YOUR FACE KANG LAU SHI!!!)
lunched at city hall with Clare-y, Jaz-y and Jenn-y.

finally had my goddamn hokkien mee.

waited for my boyflen for about an hour,

kinda pms-ed and got cranky with him

though it really wasn't his fault .

went home and slept supah early for the first time in ages,

woke up this morning and felt quite good.

met ben again and then we hung out at my place,

when i was walking him out of the gate so he could

take a cab (it was like 8pm?) ,

he started talking about the terrorist dude who escaped.

so i forced him to walk me back to the gate

cause i was scared that after he left i'd

have to walk all the way back home alone and the dude

might just pounce out from somewhere and kill me .

(yez i know he limps so he can't exactly pounce, but still)

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i can't wait for the weekend.

okay wait no,

i can't wait for the holidays.

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cause it's been a year.

here's to you and i .

forgive me if i seem forward,

but i've never been in front of anything like you .

it's the last place i ever thought i'd be when i woke up this morning.

is it true that you're always this breathtaking?

you're smart and you're willing,

and my god, this is killing me .

tell me all the things you've never said,

we can lie here and talk for hours in my bed.

i don't have anything to hide,

cause everything i have is not for certain.

tell me all of your hopes,

all of your dreams,

there's just one more thing,

one request,

i want you to take me with you .

take me with you cause i will never let you down,

i will love you now and forever .

you've started to see right through me,

and i'm loving every minute of it,

it's like i'm born again every time i breath in .

if you're curious, my favorite color's pink,

and i like to sing in the shower,

if you like, i'll sing to you.

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